Today my high school sweetheart asked me when I was lanning on having his children. This man is married with three children!
He has clearly lost it.... but one thing he helped me find was peace....
Peace in the decision that I plan to be single forever! He told me that I just haven't found the "right one"
Well I feel like out of all the different type of people I dated there can not be a "right one"
I am completely okay with the state of being single, as long I love myself there is really no need for anyone else....
Monday, February 15, 2010
#ThugLife
I just want to give a #shoutout to all the dudes and females (2) I've dated that broke my little heart! Thank you for shattering my heart into pieces, toughening my skin, and sharpening my game! If it wasn't for you ass holes I would have never learned what I know today!
I would like to also give a #shoutout to being made, if it wasn't for my process I would not have learned the definition of humility and letting shit roll off my back!
#shoutout to Rap music for solidifying my defiant behavior!
#shoutout to you hating ass commentators that make things all bad for us up and coming all stars!
#shoutout to living the #ThugLife because I simply don't give a fuck!
I would like to also give a #shoutout to being made, if it wasn't for my process I would not have learned the definition of humility and letting shit roll off my back!
#shoutout to Rap music for solidifying my defiant behavior!
#shoutout to you hating ass commentators that make things all bad for us up and coming all stars!
#shoutout to living the #ThugLife because I simply don't give a fuck!
Confession
I think I love you...
But I know you don't love me...
So I hide behind anything I can reach
a tough wall I built around me
but for you I would take it down brick by brick
I love the pain I see deep in your eyes
I love the tears behind your beautiful smile
I love your skin
I love your strength
I love the way you move
I love your confidence
I love your heartlessness
I love the challenge of you
I love the mystery of you
But most of all I love the real in you
But I know you don't love me...
So I hide behind anything I can reach
a tough wall I built around me
but for you I would take it down brick by brick
I love the pain I see deep in your eyes
I love the tears behind your beautiful smile
I love your skin
I love your strength
I love the way you move
I love your confidence
I love your heartlessness
I love the challenge of you
I love the mystery of you
But most of all I love the real in you
Waterless Tears
Everyday I cry
But I never shed tears
Overwhelming pain
deaf ears
mute words
quenchless thirst
low self-esteem
countless fears
But I never shed tears
Overwhelming pain
deaf ears
mute words
quenchless thirst
low self-esteem
countless fears
Share my eyes
I wish you could know in me what I know
I wish you would see in you what I see
How come you can't see the future I see in us
What is it going to take for success to be defined by us
The complexity of my mind matches
the chaos of your heart
All I ever asked for is a little bit of time
but time after time my application was denied
And you simply pushed me to the side
I feel like you are my soul mate
But you feel like I'm just your sex mate
maybe your friend on lonely days
Or maybe you just feel like I'm nothing
but another stop on your freeway called life
But I know deep down inside
I'm what you need...
I just wish you could see what I see
I know you feel the chemistry
Or maybe I've just been day-dreaming
falling for a fantasy
falling for a dream
I just wish you felt the warmth of my heart
the sincerity of my words
the honesty of my thoughts
the passion of my touch
I wish you would see in you what I see
How come you can't see the future I see in us
What is it going to take for success to be defined by us
The complexity of my mind matches
the chaos of your heart
All I ever asked for is a little bit of time
but time after time my application was denied
And you simply pushed me to the side
I feel like you are my soul mate
But you feel like I'm just your sex mate
maybe your friend on lonely days
Or maybe you just feel like I'm nothing
but another stop on your freeway called life
But I know deep down inside
I'm what you need...
I just wish you could see what I see
I know you feel the chemistry
Or maybe I've just been day-dreaming
falling for a fantasy
falling for a dream
I just wish you felt the warmth of my heart
the sincerity of my words
the honesty of my thoughts
the passion of my touch
Damaged Canned Goods vs. Rotten Fruit
I told my friend that I would buy a damaged canned good over rotten fruit any day. But today I realized something. I'm not buying shit...
Niggas now and days only want one of four things from a female:
Wrong! Niggas will treat you like you are their world for the time you are with them or talking to them, but that is only to give you enough of what you need, to do what they want you to do.
A Damaged canned good is someone who has been hurt before, it's hard to get them to open up to you, it's hard to get them to trust you, its even harder to get them to give you a chance to love them. A damaged canned good looks horrible on the outside (I'm talking persona not looks), but the contents are still just as good! It takes lot of courage and patience to invest in a damaged canned good.
Rotten Fruit, only cares about himself. All the signs point to no, but your are so hooked on the sweet taste of the fruit you try it anyways. But rotten fruit always taste bitter when you bite into it, and it always leaves a nasty after taste.
Niggas now and days only want one of four things from a female:
- Sex
- More Sex
- For her to caress his ego
- Convenience
Wrong! Niggas will treat you like you are their world for the time you are with them or talking to them, but that is only to give you enough of what you need, to do what they want you to do.
A Damaged canned good is someone who has been hurt before, it's hard to get them to open up to you, it's hard to get them to trust you, its even harder to get them to give you a chance to love them. A damaged canned good looks horrible on the outside (I'm talking persona not looks), but the contents are still just as good! It takes lot of courage and patience to invest in a damaged canned good.
Rotten Fruit, only cares about himself. All the signs point to no, but your are so hooked on the sweet taste of the fruit you try it anyways. But rotten fruit always taste bitter when you bite into it, and it always leaves a nasty after taste.
Sucker
Dreams are for suckers
Love is for losers
Hope is for dummies
Dating is a waste of time
Relationships are nonexistent
Good thing I'm resilient
Love is for losers
Hope is for dummies
Dating is a waste of time
Relationships are nonexistent
Good thing I'm resilient
MIA
Heartless...
Yet I feel so much pain
where my heart used to be,
Angered eyes, piercing with heat,
look deep
what do you see
a winter wonderland
because there is nothing
but ice inside of me
meaning I'm freezing
meaning I'm numb
meaning I'm done being dumb
meaning there is nothing left
emotionless sex
empty conversations
dreamless dreams
there is no me....
Yet I feel so much pain
where my heart used to be,
Angered eyes, piercing with heat,
look deep
what do you see
a winter wonderland
because there is nothing
but ice inside of me
meaning I'm freezing
meaning I'm numb
meaning I'm done being dumb
meaning there is nothing left
emotionless sex
empty conversations
dreamless dreams
there is no me....
I'm Back
I have not written in a long time... but today a friend made me realize I should get back to it!
Reading his tweets and blog post made me realize that I keep a ton of thoughts and feelings bottled up inside of me... and maybe if I let them out I can think clearly, sleep better at night, get rid of this agonizing pain in my stomach, or focus on myself and the things I need to accomplish.
That being said, I hope you all have your set belt fastened because you are in for ride! We have a lot of catching up to do.
Reading his tweets and blog post made me realize that I keep a ton of thoughts and feelings bottled up inside of me... and maybe if I let them out I can think clearly, sleep better at night, get rid of this agonizing pain in my stomach, or focus on myself and the things I need to accomplish.
That being said, I hope you all have your set belt fastened because you are in for ride! We have a lot of catching up to do.
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