Freedom

I learned something about myself over the last year and a half. And that is I hate and I do mean I hate when people try and boss me around or tell me what to do.

I march to my own beat and pay my own damn bills. Therefore, I do not need another person trying to control me or offering their two cents into my penny bank.

Keep your change, comments, and concerns to yourself. Especially you "know it all" type of people that do not actually know anything! More specially those of you that do not know anything about me, who I am, or what I stand for.

Maybe if you took your head from up your own ass you might be able to learn or listen!

My thoughts of you!

I have no respect for you or anything you stand for. I think you are a liar, a fake, untactful, and flat out rude!

I'm a Realist...

That being said:
1. Greeks live in a separate reality than that of which is real.
2. I am a woman first. And as a woman I don't give a damn about that bullshit you are talking.
3. Humility and Respect are two-way streets.
4. Honesty is a matter of what you consider the truth.
5. At the end of the day....people care about themselves first. So covering your own ass.

6. All sisters aren't friends and all friends aren't sisters.

7. Hippocrates.
8. Brainwashed.
9. You really have to stay true to yourself in all your endeavors.
10. Somethings really get taken way too far....

??????

How come you love me
but I still feel empty?
How come you think I'm so beautiful
and I can't seem to feel pretty?
How come you respect me?
How can you appreciate something in me, that I don't see?
I just want to be everything you need me to be....
Distracted in the present, stuck in the past, afraid of the future,
how do you deal with me.

Insensitive, too busy, inconsiderate, and driven. But you love me.

Dark Kiss

I miss your scent.
I miss your smile.
I miss your touch.
I miss your kiss.
I miss the tears I cried for you.
I miss the fight of keeping you.
I miss making love to you.
I miss holding on to you.
I miss being affiliated with you.
I miss talking to you on the phone for hours.
I miss running my hands through your hair.
I miss always having you there.
I miss fighting with you.

I wish I had the strength to talk to you. It kills me that we can't be friends.
If you only knew and I really miss being able to tell you.

Letter to My Ex (s)

Lately something has been tugging at my heart.
I felt I needed to write it out, but I didn't know where to start.
I thought about calling, or text, maybe even writing in your honesty box.
But my pride wouldn't let me! I felt if I opened the door of
communication between us, then I had not only lost the battle but also the war.

Even as my fingers touch the key board I am lost for words.

Let me first say thank you! You taught me so much! You helped me to become the person I am today. I think back on the passion of my youth, and the warmth and comfort I found from being with you. And my heart melts just like your touch used to.
But sure enough the pain from the scars of loving you reminds me that I am better off without you.

Shaking the thought of you is something that I have been unable to do.
I wonder if you think of me as much as I think of you?
When something great happens am I the one you want to run to?
Or when your world is crashing down am I the one you want to turn to?
Sometimes I feel incomplete without you. And frankly I kind of sorta miss you.
And this here is my issue!
I am so much better without you!
I know how to be loved and how to love!
I know what it means to be treated like a queen
As well as have someone give the world for me....
And it scares me....
Because I let you drain me! I gave you the key and you stripped me!
Absorbed the identity I thought was me!
You left me jaded with barley any energy to make.

Tainted. Lonely. Empty. Angry. Wise. Happy.

Thank you for helping me to see my worth.
Thank you for showing me how to shine with my inner beauty.
Thank you for forcing me to be stronger.
Showing me how to love harder and longer.

Thank you for setting me free!