Letter to My Ex (s)

Lately something has been tugging at my heart.
I felt I needed to write it out, but I didn't know where to start.
I thought about calling, or text, maybe even writing in your honesty box.
But my pride wouldn't let me! I felt if I opened the door of
communication between us, then I had not only lost the battle but also the war.

Even as my fingers touch the key board I am lost for words.

Let me first say thank you! You taught me so much! You helped me to become the person I am today. I think back on the passion of my youth, and the warmth and comfort I found from being with you. And my heart melts just like your touch used to.
But sure enough the pain from the scars of loving you reminds me that I am better off without you.

Shaking the thought of you is something that I have been unable to do.
I wonder if you think of me as much as I think of you?
When something great happens am I the one you want to run to?
Or when your world is crashing down am I the one you want to turn to?
Sometimes I feel incomplete without you. And frankly I kind of sorta miss you.
And this here is my issue!
I am so much better without you!
I know how to be loved and how to love!
I know what it means to be treated like a queen
As well as have someone give the world for me....
And it scares me....
Because I let you drain me! I gave you the key and you stripped me!
Absorbed the identity I thought was me!
You left me jaded with barley any energy to make.

Tainted. Lonely. Empty. Angry. Wise. Happy.

Thank you for helping me to see my worth.
Thank you for showing me how to shine with my inner beauty.
Thank you for forcing me to be stronger.
Showing me how to love harder and longer.

Thank you for setting me free!