Can He See Me?

This is an older piece of my work....

Man I wonder, can he see me?
I know what you are thinking,
he's laying right next to me.
And it was just five minutes ago
when he reached his climax inside of me!
it was just five minutes ago when
his heavy breathing exemplified how much he enjoys me.
But wait, I don't think he can see me??
I am so serious...
And no I am not crazy!
As I lay here with this fine piece of man next to me
I want to know
I want to know does he really see me?
Does he look in my eyes and see
the depth of my soul?
the struggle of my past?
the pain I cant let go?
As he kisses down my stomach
he comes up for air and whispers in my ear
but i wonder... Can he see me?
Does he recognize my broken heart
or sense the void that tears me apart?
Or is it just the warmth of my juices
that intrigues him?
So I question can he see me??
You know the inner beauty?
Or can he not get pass the slow seductive
sway of my hips as I'm on top of him?
I can see him!
But as I lay here, this quote on quote understanding
is not giving me the stability or security I need
Now I'm wondering does he even deserve me?
Am I just another name added to his list of victories?
Of course not silly, is what I tell myself
all those amazing qualities inside of you?
Everything that shines right through you?
What?
Only a fool wouldn't appreciate you!
I look at his closed eyes and roll over as I tell myself...
Girl! You're tripping He already told you!
No titles... understand that right now he is just enjoying
getting to know you
His eyes will gradually open right?
And if not...its cool because
reduced and limited to an understanding is
probably the best thing for you....
So I closed my eyes and once again tried to sleep....
But wait, it just doesn't seem right to me....
why should he get the best of me physically
if he cant open his ears, heart, mind and eyes
to see me emotionally, mentally, and most of all
appreciatively!
There is sooo much more to me! Damn I could just scream!
I'm laying in my red boy shorts looking over the bed at the
pile of clothes next to me...
mad because i know this boy cant see shit about me!
Then he turns and puts his arms around me....
I just lay there...
suddenly feeling calm...dozing off to sleep
i guess for now i have to be complacent with a mere understanding.
and even if he cant see the layers of me....
he can hear the passion in my moans as he climbs inside of me....
As least that's what I convince myself.....
but when the sun rises and we through up the ACES
no hugs or kisses
I have to ask myself....
Do you think he will ever see you?