There is this pain in my chest and hole in my stomach
Speaking empty words
Crying dry tears
Running from the reality of facing my fears
Is anyone out there?
Doubts of self worth
Full plate of food no fork
Sweet scents, got a whiff
5 senses but I cant smell it
I cant taste it
and I sure as hell don't feel it
numb to emotion so I feel emotionless
but its these emotions that got me jones'n
for the answer to an unasked question
Loneliness has my body feening for another hit
as I struggle to quit
I just stepped out the pool of self hatred
into the ocean of life's confusion
feeling like I'm not worth it and I will never deserve it
hard work doesn't seem to pay off
so I'm ready to quit
tired of fighting the bullshit
this hole in my stomach wont quit growing
and the pain in my chest gets stronger with every set back
on this journey to inner happiness.....
I don't think I can endure much more of this....
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